yamanai ame da neeee

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

You know, no matter how many times I look like I don't care
or look like it doesn't bother me, this thing you're doing, it does. damn it.
Something which holds completely no purpose at all, except make me feel like an inadequate piece of chicken shit or something like that- and you know it, don't deny that you don't and don't act like you're any less intelligent then I know you are.

have you guys ever met someone who does things just to make you look stupid in front of people who matter to you? pretending that it's all a joke and that its all very amusing, at the expense of your ego? yes, hi, look I do have an ego you know. everyone has their pride and you, intruding upon my grounds, looking as if you know everything just doesn't do any justice to neither you nor I.
you reminded me of one of those stupider-then-they-realise kids who think they are smarter just cause you won. haha.. 'won' is such an immature word, i wanna laugh at you in your stupid face. you should be glad I didn't stand up and ask you, 'do you think you're accomplishing anything or helping anyone with your totally thoughtless and most inconsiderate actions?' fuck, you have no idea how much I wanted to do it. to embarrass you like you embarrassed me. instead, i sat there like a total idiot and looked very very offended.(but of course, no one noticed. everyone was too busy laughing at her joke.)

I guess I have no one else to blame but myself.
Doesn't help that no one seems to forget about it. no, its ok. really.

8:55 PM